The Fly Life

uncertainty
is the enemy
but it works for me
when i'm wondering
what the furture holds
should i be bold
or should i fall back
relax
not stress
mull in my own diress
every time the dust settles
something comes along to meddle
detach
from myself
rehash
what i felt
when you ignored my calls
you dick
you prick
but calling you names
won't make me not feel the same
way that i do
adandoned by you
so i mustn't let the silt
settle so much it builds
a wall around me
so that water can't surround me
and carry me
to the open ocean
where I can be free.

Time robs me.
It waits out
Steaks out
until my every move
is predictable
Not unlike the calendar that
Maya made of stone
and trial and error.
For if it was up to me
I would have never
left you alone.

When you feel the world
Closing in on you
And to stop it
There's nothing you can do

Time lies to me
tells me to move forward,
against my will.
But my will
moves forward,
with you by my side.

Just call my name
I'll come running
No matter where I am

Working in a room
Sunlight streaming through windows
I miss my students.

I succumb to dark
No longer resist sleep : that's
Inevitable

A horror story
Of the American brand
Miss you already

If I was a #fool
I'll have #married for #money
Instead of for #love

To fold the clothing

I am the daughter of a quiet mind
who always dreamed
Reached for what she could not see.
She leaped forth uninhibited
and beautiful.
She shook her hips
with abandon
with the outcasts of society.
God, how she wanted the world to know
just how happy she was.
And when they heard her call,
they responded.
The world brought this beauty
out of her.
The world brought this beauty
out of here.

I want to proclaim to the gods
What I cannot say to you
Because you,
You are my kryptonite
And the closer I get to you
The closer I get to my own demise.
I despise what has become of us
To no fault but my own
I let you go
Because I couldn't let you know
How weak I was to you...
I had a poise to maintain.

Do you remember when our souls touched?
When it was almost too much for mine to bear?
You came alongside me
And you held my hand.
I love you in that moment
I love you for that night.
I will never say "I loved"
Because that would be a lie.
Because I still love you
Like that childhood memory I visit in the middle of the night.
Though you're not with me,
I can still feel the joy from when my heart smiled
On to you.
When you get up and the beds still warm.
I will hold strong to that memory
Until we can make more.
Because remember when's are always better than what if's
No matter how much it hurts to never forget
How you held my hand
Kissed my forehead
Made me your only one
Remember when
I was yours
And you were mine
For that fraction of a second
In our lives?
I do. I won't forget.
I won't regret.

Take in your hands the delicacy of the confidence that has been discovered only in recent times, find it in the stillness of my body when I stand in front of you with everything to give and nothing to lose.. See it in the corner of my eye when I look at you with intent and waiting for what is subsequent... Feel it in the way that my hands memorize your face, shoulders, and study the way your veins in your arms trace paces to the palms of your hands.. When my fingers gently hold yours, feel the confidence that has been newly found, and revel in it. With love, Vida

My words have become clouded. 

You're familiar to me.
Like a sunny winter's morning.
You rise like the breaths that I take,
and I rise with you.
To the sky, the heavens.
The bitter cold has gripped my being,
But you, who's rays shine upon me.
You keep me warm.
My hands want to write you, invite you into my existence
But I cannot,
I am covered to protect me.
Yet you to comfort me
Simultaneously.

I do not have time for sexy
if it means I do not dance.
I am far too strong
Too fly
for that shit.
My body is too strong
to only look like
it knows what its doing
by the bar,
less then half the time.
My thighs are too strong
for a two step.
My arms are too strong
to sway side to side.

I am too lost
between the bars and the beat
to be held up
by you
who want to grab my hand
and assume
I will press myself
up against you
hot and tight
only for you
not to be able to keep up
with my hips
that move side to side
and invade your space
just enough
for you to feel comfortable.

Instead,
simply ask-
If I may welcome you
into my pure,
unadulterated,
Ecstasy.

My euphoria lies
in conditioning my body
to endure like a Spartan.
My arms hold my balance
grabbing the air
as if there was something there.
I will push my legs
to the very limits
as they question
their existence
as thighs or
pillars to the Colosseum,
My hips
you know
the ones passed from the Goddesses
yeah, those.
My center
your guiding light
through a set
of Salsa
Bachata
Merengue
Dancehall
Reggae
and everything in between.

If you are brave,
we can sweat together
get lost together.
Because I do not have time for you
if it means I do not dance.

I'm far too fly
for that shit.