The Fly Life

Working in a room
Sunlight streaming through windows
I miss my students.

I succumb to dark
No longer resist sleep : that's
Inevitable

A horror story
Of the American brand
Miss you already

If I was a #fool
I'll have #married for #money
Instead of for #love

To fold the clothing

I am the daughter of a quiet mind
who always dreamed
Reached for what she could not see.
She leaped forth uninhibited
and beautiful.
She shook her hips
with abandon
with the outcasts of society.
God, how she wanted the world to know
just how happy she was.
And when they heard her call,
they responded.
The world brought this beauty
out of her.
The world brought this beauty
out of here.

I want to proclaim to the gods
What I cannot say to you
Because you,
You are my kryptonite
And the closer I get to you
The closer I get to my own demise.
I despise what has become of us
To no fault but my own
I let you go
Because I couldn't let you know
How weak I was to you...
I had a poise to maintain.

Do you remember when our souls touched?
When it was almost too much for mine to bear?
You came alongside me
And you held my hand.
I love you in that moment
I love you for that night.
I will never say "I loved"
Because that would be a lie.
Because I still love you
Like that childhood memory I visit in the middle of the night.
Though you're not with me,
I can still feel the joy from when my heart smiled
On to you.
When you get up and the beds still warm.
I will hold strong to that memory
Until we can make more.
Because remember when's are always better than what if's
No matter how much it hurts to never forget
How you held my hand
Kissed my forehead
Made me your only one
Remember when
I was yours
And you were mine
For that fraction of a second
In our lives?
I do. I won't forget.
I won't regret.

Take in your hands the delicacy of the confidence that has been discovered only in recent times, find it in the stillness of my body when I stand in front of you with everything to give and nothing to lose.. See it in the corner of my eye when I look at you with intent and waiting for what is subsequent... Feel it in the way that my hands memorize your face, shoulders, and study the way your veins in your arms trace paces to the palms of your hands.. When my fingers gently hold yours, feel the confidence that has been newly found, and revel in it. With love, Vida

My words have become clouded. 

You're familiar to me.
Like a sunny winter's morning.
You rise like the breaths that I take,
and I rise with you.
To the sky, the heavens.
The bitter cold has gripped my being,
But you, who's rays shine upon me.
You keep me warm.
My hands want to write you, invite you into my existence
But I cannot,
I am covered to protect me.
Yet you to comfort me
Simultaneously.